Lazy days

Since I have finished school, I find that I just no will power to do anything anymore, no determination or drive. I mean today all I did was get up late then watch star trek voyager for 12 hours straight, I mean why? I know I could have done something and at points of the day I did want to do something but I just couldn't be bothered and now I feel guilty for wasting the day. I just don't know how to get motivation back into my life, I found that before my exams that I had the same problem that I CBA to do anything, then at the last minuet I felt the stress of exams and started working, but now that stress has gone I just don't do anything. I find that I am no longer living my life, but mearly existing with no purpose or direction. I try to be a spiritual person and pray, but I find I get no answer and it's causing to doubt my faith. For example when trying to choose university's and courses, I prayed a lot and the only answer I seemed to get is that I would have to make up my own mind, which I hate doing as I hate making decisions. And when I say I hate it I really mean it, it takes me forever to make my mind up about anything and even when I do finally make up my mind, I'm always second guessing myself and wishing I had done things differently even If I had made a good decision. If anyone reading this has any advice no matter when your reading this, I would greatly apritiate it.

An active weekend

Well this is my second post, and the last couple of days have been interesting. On Friday, the last exams were had, so everyone came round my house for a piss up to celebrate, which was great fun. Eventually the neighbours noticed so I had to lock the doors so the drunks couldn't escape onto the streets and cause havoc, I mean my friends are great, but pissed they can be a nightmare. The next day after 3 hours sleep and tiding the house, I then went out with my mates to help out at the village fair. We help set up then the others left as they had their lives to get back to, so I went into photography mode and started working down at the fair. A word of advise, after consuming copious amounts of alcohol don't then go zorbing, which is basically getting thrown around in a rubber ball as shown below, as it doesn't leave an easy stomach.

After helping push people around and taking some pictures, my scout leader, who manipulates me far to easily, then suggested I should help in the duck race, which is where we float a load of plastic ducks down the river and use the numbers on them as a raffle. From this, he then convinced me that since I was already wet, I should take part in the barrel race, where you have to carry a beer barrel up river and back again, I was not pleased.

Above is us pulling the barrel up the weir, that was hard work I can tell you. Then with only time for a burger, I then helped take down various tents and equipment to pack up the fair. From this I collapsed and didn't move until today where I had a nice family barbecue and a generally lazy day to recover. 

My First Blog

Well this is my first blog. It is basically gonna be a diary of my life, just so i can keep clear in my head what I've done each day, it's also to express my views and share stuff I've learn't. I'm not a great speller or writer, so I apologise but I just kinda like typing, so this is a way to do lots of mindless typing, which may eventually get read.


Today was my last A-Level exam, my last ever day at St Boniface College and the end of an era. It feels weird that 14 years of compulsory education is over and that the world is my oyster. I've been reflecting on what i can remember of it all, and there is a lot of it. I've had great teachers and made lots of friends along the way, and I am going to miss them greatly.